Beautiful, black eyes,
dying inside,
your soul calls out,
in pain,
so much destruction,
so much hate,
but you stay here,
here in my arms,
I hold you tight,
my warmth calms you,
your tormented soul,
that cries tears of blood,
why do you call for me?
leave me be,
because you long for me,
I walk away,
cold, you shiver,
I watch you drown,
and smile, because I know,
that you are in pain.
My mind,
A space for you,
You always reside,
In strange places,
Please release me,
let go of me,
everything is there,
please…
Dying won’t change anything,
it’s so cold,
this body won’t leave,
why won’t you listen?
Burn onto me,
release your love,
please give it away,
all of it,
You died,
I realize that,
but I still want you,
please be there,
Why won’t you answer?
I cry in the dark,
you were just there,
I felt you,
Everyone dies,
I know that,
I still want you,
I still need you,
can’t you see that?
Why won’t you answer?
These dreams are always strange,
they come and go,
but leave a memory,
it’s terrifying,
when I wake,
my whole body is shaking,
because of the dream,
the dream of madness,
Sometimes I wonder,
where do they come from?
they exist in my mind,
but it’s destroying me,
Why does this occur?
these dreams of madness,
I wait for them to cease,
but they keep on coming,
Nightmares are one thing,
but these are completely different,
they are haunting,
in a strange way,
Why do my dreams,
consist only of madness?
that is all,
that they are made of,
my dreams of madness.
Sleep, my child,
for you will know,
what is tomorrow,
but I shall not,
it is true, I used to hold you,
used to love you,
so deeply,
but that is all gone,
my life is gone,
but you strive,
you will live,
behind my closed eyes,
they will watch you,
from my shallow grave,
death shall not wait,
because it feeds,
it feeds on the weak,
but do not fear,
your mother will protect you,
because I once held you,
I love you, behind closed eyes.
This knife I have,
It smiles at me,
Saying to carve,
It into the skin,
The flesh begs,
For the cold, sharp steel,
It feels like fire,
Sharp and hot,
black blood,
Drips down my arm,
I scream as the pain,
Goes to my head,
The blade finally,
Got what it wanted.
Your cries,
chills in the night,
the wind breaks,
every possible hope,
the ice falls,
slides down your throat,
it cuts deep,
blood freezes there,
you try to create heat,
by rubbing your hands together,
but nothing works,
loss of breath,
it’s hard to breathe,
the cold is overwhelming,
it breaks your heart,
but you keep going,
I am the only thing,
that is heat,
hold me tightly,
and you will not die.
The winter cracks,
It tears through the snow,
Sometimes blowing,
Everything away,
Cool water runs over skin,
It seeps into the surface,
And then falls down,
Down into the earth,
This is death,
It is breaking the soul,
It is harboring for new life,
For new paths to take,
The snow falls down hard,
And it keeps falling,
But there is a light,
One lonely light in the darkness,
With that light one is able to see,
What is ahead, what lies,
In the wait of the night,
In the silence, it burns,
Something is breaking apart,
All the lies and death,
All the evil and destruction,
And brings it all back,
When will it be over?
Only the sound of cracking is heard,
This is life,
It is breaking chaos, breaking the heart.
Blood splashed all around,
like rain falling,
it ran down my skin,
and curdled at my feet,
This isn’t happening,
fear awakens in me,
as the strength fades,
the blood spills out,
It trickles down,
and then boils,
as it devours,
what’s left of sanity,
The consciousness is lost,
when too much blood,
spills out beneath,
and you are left there,
It is very dark and cold,
but you comfort me,
and take the pain away,
even as the blood spills.
Burning, scorching,
Fire surrounds,
I am suffocating,
The pain is too much,
The fire is a knife,
Scratching against my lungs,
Making them bleed,
I am falling apart,
The blood drips,
The pain is unbearable,
But I bite my lip,
I do not call out,
I sit in the dark, damp pool,
The pool of blood,
The fire engulfs me,
And the wind sweeps my pieces away.
Bleeding,
It’s how I’m alive,
I would not know,
Other than the blood,
It falls to the ground,
Pours out of me,
Pools in a circle,
Someone reflects in it,
Is it me?
who is this person?
My heart pounds,
Even when it bleeds,
Why did you have to go?
The pain is unbearable,
Please come back,
Into my arms,
Blood…it keeps me breathing,
Even though,
I’m short of breath…
Please come back,
I need you,
Like blood, to live