Dragon's World Kanasi

She waited every day,

waited on the porch,

for his return,

but he never came,
 

For some time,

he would write,

telling her how much he loved her,

how much she meant to him,
 

The letters would come every week,

and the red flag would go up on her mailbox,

she would be so excited,

so thrilled to hear from him,
 

For awhile she would write back,

telling him how much she missed him,

how she wanted to see him,

and that she would always be waiting,
 

But then one day the letters stopped,

they stopped reaching the house,

and she was saddened,

because she thought he had left her,
 

She would still wait every day,

the delivery person would come,

and she would ask if there were any letters,

from the one she loved,
 

But every day was the same,

there were none,

until one day, one small envelope came,

it was from the man’s relative,
 

She opened it, with shaking hands,

she winced as she opened the seal,

then the woman’s face turned to horror,

as she read the few words written,
 

It read:

‘I’m sorry to inform you that your loved one has passed away.

He was killed in the war, and I am very sorry, because he was close to me as well.

Please let us know if there is anything we can do.’
 

The woman wept,

she held the letter close to her face,

as the tears fell down,

and stained the page so the ink ran down,
 

She managed to pull through,

to get past all the pain,

and live on,

it was what he would have wanted her to do,
 

All of the letters were tied with a red string,

and kept in a wooden box,

that she kept close,

and would read from time to time,
 

She never thought this would happen,

that she would receive such a letter,

but in time her heart healed,

and she was able to press forward.

I don’t know what’s real,

what is there to believe?

is it really possible,

or are we all fake?

who decides our fates?

who gives us orders,

tells our bodies what to do?

when will we die?

these are many questions,

that follow the one,

the one everyone wants to know,

why are we here?

what is our true purpose,

the thing we crave for,

love, anger, hope, war?

will there be an end?

one can never tell,

no one will ever know,

the reason for living,

but we do it anyways.

The fall will be back again,

when will you know,

that everything is lost,

that nothing is right,
 

Sometimes we break,

and then we ask ourselves why?

why did we go through that,

why did we encounter the fall?
 

It happens to so many of us,

we lose sight of what we are,

and then all will fall,

and the rest will appear,
 

Why does this have to be this way?

why can’t we live,

why can’t we be on our own?

everything is so distorted,
 

Something is in the place,

of this heart,

this heart that is falling,

falling for the one who is not there,
 

When will we learn?

when will we find the truth?

and let everything else fade,

let the fall take place

When everything is lost,

You don’t know where to go,

Look into her eyes,

And you’ll see everything,

She’s standing there all alone,

Go and talk to her,

He looked away to the battle,

And left without a trace,

Why did he go? Where is his pride?

She never did get those answers,

But she knew that he would return someday,

Even through the dusty sky,

She remembers his soft hair,

His beating heart, lashing out to her,

With every vein,

And then he told her his secret…

So why did he leave?

Every day she cries and says it was her,

That she was the reason he left,

That wasn’t true, even through the dusty sky,

Her blonde hair blows in the wind… of the dusty sky.

I can feel it,

when it hits my skin,

it’s smooth and wonderful,

but also painful,

It’s your love,

it cuts me deeply,

and I feel a sensation,

it’s kind of sweet,

Your cold eyes stare,

at my pale skin,

I know it’s wrong,

but I enjoy it,

This one sensation,

it burns onto my mind,

when you are near,

but it is sweet,

I know it won’t last,

but I pray it will be strong,

this sweet, sweet feeling,

the sensation of you.

You think you know someone,

Until they lie,

And you scream in their face,

Saying how much you loved them,

Why do we have to be strangers?

Communication is the key,

But you never understand,

What is inside my heart,

These feelings for you are filling my mind,

I can’t even think or breathe,

You are suffocating me,

It’s so unbearable,

Why do we have to be strangers?
 
We are so far apart,

I thought I knew you, and you me,

But I guess I was wrong,

Please don’t come close,

Don’t even talk to me,

I don’t understand,

How we could be strangers after so long.

Please don’t go,

Please stay with me,

Inside this place,

Inside my heart,

Don’t leave me to cry,

All alone, I feel,

Empty, like a shell,

So please don’t go,

My life is dry,

Without you it’s nothing,

I’ll just fly away,

And I don’t want to leave,

Stay,

Inside this place,

Inside my heart,

Forever please,

Stay inside me,

Protect me from harm,

So that I can love,

You again.

I walk along the street,

And you look at me,

I wonder what you think,

Of me and my heart,

Yes, I’m staring at you,

Because I love you,

But you don’t notice me,

And I walk away,

You are the one I want,

Because you are beautiful,

And I stare at you endlessly,

Because it’s all I can do,

How I wish you would see me,

Then I can tell you the truth,

The truth is that I’m in love,

And nothing can stop me now, from staring at you.

People are full of hatred,

They treat others badly,

And make others mad,

So what’s the point?

 

These are sorrowful times,

Because people can be so ignorant,

They are greedy and only think of themselves,

And take others’ lives,

When will the fighting stop?

Nothing will be perfect,

But this doesn’t have to be this way,

People are horrible and don’t care,

Sorrowful times, are now,

People are brutal,

They even hurt themselves,

For what gain or purpose?

People are full of hatred, sorrow,

Sadness,

Why can’t we all live in peace?

Why can’t we?!

I’ve been through a lot,

But you don’t know,

The pain I’ve sought,

And I hate you so…

So much, I love you so much,

why does it have to be this way?

You fade and then you touch,

I love you so much, everyday,

I’ve seen such toil, such fear,

And you said you would come back,

But I know you’re already there,

And my words is what the voice lacks,

So much I want to tell you,

My true feelings, and then you’ll understand,

But until then be true,

And then you always can…

Hear my words, please stay with me,

Hold my tight against your skin,

When will you come back for me?

I feel weak and so thin… without you,

So much I want to be with you…

I need a sign, something,

To tell me that you,

Are here, in my heart within.